Tuesday, 13 March 2018

My dairy – 'The 152 pages with you'. 23rd page.



The day when I stand alone on the ‘line of intense’ to tell everything to you.......


The day when my new dreams started, it was casual…
They told me new stories which were almost unusual.
I really don’t know what’s false and real..,

It was a totally new experience to me never ever happened before, I was totally not trained to act to it …
I told you everything…….. Pls forgive me..  
The day came, when I not able to keep inside me, I was not able to act anymore with you.
……cntd . I told just… now really embarrassed to talk… with what face!!??, with what expression!!?? To talk with you, I just really numb … sometimes for minutes or sometimes hours, thinking and thinking …
I was literally held by ‘dual’ playing with me…'heavenly play with snake' , 'the whispering near the ears' what are those??  .cntd
more to talk with you ‘ saahiti’ with ua permission.  I want to talk face to face.. enough of virtual world .

But I am sorry, I know i have betrayed you,but u always done good for me.. ‘I am not that what you see in the reflection of mirror ’.
You may think that why?? I am not come and tell everything, but I really afraid of loosing you and ua hope on me.
Oh!! Rain come wash all my confusions,
Ooo clouds ,drop ua tears on dry plants…
Make our ‘shimoga‘ malnad again…”

i really don't know to how to write or talk.....with you, any error pls forgive me.....
- ssanchari  





  

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